What freak LIKES to purge?

Me?

I purged for the first time in months. (A whole pizza....) And I feel amazing. My stomach hurts and my ribs hurt. Breathing hurts. I have red speckles all over my face from broken blood vessels. But it was awesome. I was scared, I remember how hard it was to start months ago. I didn't want that fear and how long and difficult it was. But...it wasn't. It was like riding a bike. It all just fell out, like my body remembered that it was supposed to reject food like a bill in a vending machine, it was just waiting for me to give the signal. The next morning, my throat hurts, chest hurts, and my stomach kills. I forget how hard it is on the abs. But....stomach kills. I don't even want to eat with a tummy ache, making the rest of my days easier.

Does anyone else get that? After a big middle of the night purge you just feel...satisfied? Don't need to eat the next day?

I'm Back

I fell off for a while there, I didn't care. But after watching Girl With The Dragon Tattoo I am back on. Rooney Mara. Five foot three and non existent. I can do it too. I'm back.

New Weigh In Day?

Last night was awful.
But luckily I purged most, if not all, of it up. Fuck me for eating hard to purge food. But luckily my little tum-tum feels tired and like shit after all that hard purging last night so eating is not something that is going to happen. Not soon anyways....

So I've noticed that weekends tend to be a bit harder, should I change my weigh in days to Friday or more likely Saturday morning? That way if the weekend goes sour I don't have to pay for it on Monday and I get a chance to correct any weekend mishaps over the week? I'm thinking about it.

Ugh..fuck purging. My stomach feels like shiiiiiit.




But the scale says 121.6 so...who cares?
Off to do crunches while I watch tv. Shoot me some mail, we'll talk.
<3

Rough Night

Last night was awful. Zero sleep. I may have to increase my cal and lower slowly. And no tea before bed hahah!

But... When I stepped on the scale this morning (even though I know it doesn't "count"...I couldn't help but smile at it reading 121.8. ...