I'm Back

I fell off for a while there, I didn't care. But after watching Girl With The Dragon Tattoo I am back on. Rooney Mara. Five foot three and non existent. I can do it too. I'm back.

Help?

Super beautiful mega thinspo best friend is coming up from Arizona (Moved 2 years ago, but we stay in touch and are super close). Just in time to see her perfect thin little size 1 body next to my gargantuan form. I won't be able to hear her talk over the sound of my thighs scraping together.

May 28th she will be here...

What do you think I can lose by then?

    Diet now will be eat nothing until I am honestly hungry (I'll drink something first to make sure I'm not just confusing hunger for thirst.) and then super restrict. But stay healthy. And hey, if I want a little something sweet, I won't deprive, but for sure talk to my texting buddy (love you) to make sure I don't over do it. Deprivation leads to binge. I won't treat it like ana or a diet. Just fact. It HAS to be done so I will do it. No fuss. Just do. As for exercise I am thinking 20 minute circuits of cardio/toning whenever I can fit it in. Alternating simple things like jumping jacks and running in place with crunches and squats and such just to keep my heart rate up and tone. This will probably work better than going to the gym for 2 hours every few days. Keep my metabolism up and hopefully burn fat more efficiently.

    So...May 28th...how much can I lose, realistically?

Okay I'm planning entirely to make sure I DO NOT over eat tomorrow. I fucked up today...ugh.

Plan for tomorrow that I CANNOT deviate from (Unless it's less):

Brekkie:
¼ cup of plain oatmeal with cinnamon (75 cal)
1 cup of green tea
Total = 75 cal

Lunch:
1 hard boiled egg (77 cal)
1 applesauce (50 cal)
Total = 127 cal

Dinner:
Unknown (whatever Ma makes) - 200-300 cal at most


DO NOT DEVIATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Feel fat when I lose and thin when I gain?

Why is it that whenever I feel really fat and don't want to step on the scale, I dropped? Am I bloated so I just feel fat, but actually am not? Yesterday I was at 122 and felt small. Then I B/P'd and today I feel fat, but I'm 120.4?


What?

Restrict today, make sure it's not a fluke.

Decent

Well today has been alright. Half a bowl of oatmeal with cinnamon for brek (real oatmeal, not that prepackaged shit), ¾ cup of rice cereal, and a cup of chicken noodle soup just now. A detailed cal count will come later tonight. Now I'm off to exercise and read Wintergirls while I do!

-Macca