I fell off for a while there, I didn't care. But after watching Girl With The Dragon Tattoo I am back on. Rooney Mara. Five foot three and non existent. I can do it too. I'm back.
Shitty. Sick. And I'm using it as an excuse to openly starve and purge. Ugh. I thought I got over it, I thought this was just a "phase" and I felt lie a stupid poser child. But it just smacked me again and that's when I realized I probably won't be free from this for a while. Once I gave in the first time, there's not going back. And strangely, I'm okay with that. Welcome it, even. But I have an exchange student with me until the 18th and I cant restrict with her always around...So I've been maintaining and hating it. Ugh. I love her to death but she needs to go so I can be thin.
You're back!! I've missed you! How are you?
ReplyDeleteShitty. Sick. And I'm using it as an excuse to openly starve and purge. Ugh. I thought I got over it, I thought this was just a "phase" and I felt lie a stupid poser child. But it just smacked me again and that's when I realized I probably won't be free from this for a while. Once I gave in the first time, there's not going back. And strangely, I'm okay with that. Welcome it, even.
DeleteBut I have an exchange student with me until the 18th and I cant restrict with her always around...So I've been maintaining and hating it. Ugh. I love her to death but she needs to go so I can be thin.
I'm a bad person.
Long message, sorry.